Jizazfrik

My fourth post in as many months, I suppose I do not yet have an audience out there This year has been one crazy year. I’ve had so much to do and so little time and money to do it.

I finally moved to an apartment on my own after leaving for years with a house mate. It took me two months of paying rent to a house that I’m not leaving in to realize that I actually have to move in. Then there is the issue of getting household stuff. Quite the expense, but not a big priority once you already have a bed, a cooker and a TV. The rest will come in slowly over the next months. I enjoy staying there now, actually look forward to getting home, a flat I can call MY ‘digz’. Having the liberty to just do things my own way is an amazing experience that I enjoying any time I spill something and I don’t have to clean up if I don’t want to.

Then I’ve had the personal challenge of acquiring a new skill. I am learning web design and programming and Linux administration. I told myself that I have to challenge my brain and not just be content with what I know to discharge my work duties. It’s been fun, studying without assignments or exams. And I’m actually surprised that I have the discipline to do this. But in all honesty the motivation is a friend of mine that is always trying our something new when I’m out partying and yet I’m supposed to compete with him intellectually.

I also challenged myself to be more productive at work and be a change agent in the way things are done, and to equip my workmates with whatever skill that I have to achieve the level of efficiency that I ‘might’ be having. Instead of complaining about what the company doesn’t do for me, I’ve changed my attitude to what I can do for the company.  I have therefore been organizing training beyond my job description and taking the time to help my workmates at all times.

I’ve also ‘gotten’ myself into long term relationship geared towards marriage. Relationships are work! Communication, interaction, dependency, love. All these require time and effort.

So yes, I’ve been busy, tired, and borderline stressed out. I wonder if this is how life should be. Always toiling and never having time to enjoy the fruits of your labor. I sure hope not! Maybe I should just take some time off and smell the flowers in the meadows, and forget all my worries for just that one day, and be in total bliss.

‘Come to me all who are tired and heavy laden, and I will give you rest Matthew 11:28 ‘