Jizazfrik

My fourth post in as many months, I suppose I do not yet have an audience out there This year has been one crazy year. I’ve had so much to do and so little time and money to do it.

I finally moved to an apartment on my own after leaving for years with a house mate. It took me two months of paying rent to a house that I’m not leaving in to realize that I actually have to move in. Then there is the issue of getting household stuff. Quite the expense, but not a big priority once you already have a bed, a cooker and a TV. The rest will come in slowly over the next months. I enjoy staying there now, actually look forward to getting home, a flat I can call MY ‘digz’. Having the liberty to just do things my own way is an amazing experience that I enjoying any time I spill something and I don’t have to clean up if I don’t want to.

Then I’ve had the personal challenge of acquiring a new skill. I am learning web design and programming and Linux administration. I told myself that I have to challenge my brain and not just be content with what I know to discharge my work duties. It’s been fun, studying without assignments or exams. And I’m actually surprised that I have the discipline to do this. But in all honesty the motivation is a friend of mine that is always trying our something new when I’m out partying and yet I’m supposed to compete with him intellectually.

I also challenged myself to be more productive at work and be a change agent in the way things are done, and to equip my workmates with whatever skill that I have to achieve the level of efficiency that I ‘might’ be having. Instead of complaining about what the company doesn’t do for me, I’ve changed my attitude to what I can do for the company.  I have therefore been organizing training beyond my job description and taking the time to help my workmates at all times.

I’ve also ‘gotten’ myself into long term relationship geared towards marriage. Relationships are work! Communication, interaction, dependency, love. All these require time and effort.

So yes, I’ve been busy, tired, and borderline stressed out. I wonder if this is how life should be. Always toiling and never having time to enjoy the fruits of your labor. I sure hope not! Maybe I should just take some time off and smell the flowers in the meadows, and forget all my worries for just that one day, and be in total bliss.

‘Come to me all who are tired and heavy laden, and I will give you rest Matthew 11:28 ‘

It has taken quite a while for me to decided what the content of my blogging will be. The only thing I have known for sure is that I have this desire to write; to write something about God, something for God and something with God.

Should I be preachy, should it just be a journal of my day to day experiences, should it be a bible study? Well at the end of it all I have decided to go with the flow, to write whatever is my heart at the moment.

Jizazfrik was inspired a long time ago by the song Jesus Freak by DC Talk which basically set to put some pride into being a christian by embracing a term that was often times used derogatorily. At the time I was fully involved in being a christian. I lived and breathed the word of God and sought to apply it in every aspect of my life. I readily identified with being one. I guess it was easy because all around me i had Christians to support me. I was very active in church, the Christan union and all things church related. All my relation were from the church.

But being the ‘real’ world has seen me go through challenges that indeed at best I had not prepared fore. In the workplace, being a ‘Saved’ christian is being part of a minority. And it can be quite drowning in that you are forced to hang around colleagues that do not share the same perspective as you in so many different subjects. And so you either have to be a lone voice, and therefore have people avoid you at lunch time, or agree with the conversation. This is the greatest challenge that i am having now. How to balance the Christian side of me, be light of Jesus and in the meanwhile maintain relationships with people who are not of the same christian view as I am.

I know that there is a balance to be met. It is my duty as a christian to be a light of the world and a salt of the earth. But I have to be careful not to alienate those whom I try to reach, neither should i dilute the gospel of truth.

To this goal to I start this new journey in Christianity. I want to re-equip myself with the gospel of truth. To remember exactly how it started and to know where I’m headed. To live an exemplary (does not mean perfect) christian life in the ‘real’ world so that I will teach by example what it means to be a ‘real’ christian.

Mat 5:13 Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost its savor, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out and trodden under foot of men.